The Toughest February, EVER

I don't know where to start.

Actually, the title itself tells you everything that I want to write here. Yes, I think this is the toughest February ever. Not because something bad happened to me. Well, in a nutshell, things are not going as easy as I thought it would be.

First of all, I'm still struggling as a freelance worker. I know, I've been ranting about it so many times. But I still can't figure out how to manage my time, my work, and my money. It's been tricky until now. I think I need to go to financial adviser or something.

But, to get a financial adviser, I need cash to pay them. Duh.

Last month, I got more projects to do. It will be challenging for me because I never done such thing before. I had some concerns about it. I already told my boyfriend about what I've been worrying lately. He told me to chill a lil bit. But, I can't. Maybe it takes time to get used to it. I can do this.

So, this February, I will come up with more self development tips that related to my job as a freelance worker. Because to be able to write it, I need to do it. I'm eager to learn and share more with you. I already bookmarked some articles that I read online. Also, I'm gonna finish 2 books called "How to Sell Your Art Online" by Cory Huff and "Designing Your Life" by Bill Burnett and Dave Evans.

I promised myself to finish it by December 2017. The reality is, it's already February and I'm still on page... of introduction. Shit. I was THAT lazy to read. I have to read more from now.

Also, there will be more beauty contents. Yup, I'm officially enjoy this new label called beauty blogger. I know where my money will go to. Before, I couldn't be 100% on it because, man, it takes sooo much effort to writer just 1 review. But then as the time went by, I finally got my formula and have my heart 100% on it.

This month, I want to learn more by meeting new people,  by reading more books, by listening more podcasts, and by watching what actually happen in society, closely. I don't know how, but I will just start. I will be 26 this month. I realize, life is short to worry too much or to overthink about everything. I'm gonna just do it.

It's not about being all positive. My life feels shitty. That's why I write the title "The Toughest February" because... it is! Some people might read this as some random bullshit about me ranting, but I actually write this to figure things out. Here I am, giving some pep talks to myself without asking people to give a shit.

But if you have any advice, let me know. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Still.

Will it be the toughest February after I share this thought? Let's see.